We never get over being children

The need for our parents exist for the rest of our lives. No matter how old I am whenever I am going through something I always want to call my mother, even though I lost my dad at a young age, whenever experiencing a situation with the opposite sex, it's like "ooh if my dad was here!!"
We always feel the need to be protected by our parents. The little girl in me is always waiting to come out, whether its on the swing in the park, bikeriding, the ferris wheel, dressing up like my mother or simply just playing around.
As a child we were thought to listen otherwise there are consequences, as an adult we have to follow the same rules and when we do not there are consequences.

Adversity introduces man to himself

There are times we may not know our strengths or weaknesses until tested. A bumble bee has small wings and a large body, scientifically speaking he should be unable to fly but no one told him that; he flies daily.
I have climbed the mountain top, slipped and fell in the valley but I did not stay there, did not like it there; adverse actions propelled me forward.
I am who I am today because of adversity, it made me stronger, I have been tested and I continue to pass even when society says I failed.

If it is true that your life flashes past your eyes before you die, then it is also the truth that your life rushes forth when you are ready to live.

I believe that your life rushes forth when you are ready to live because in times of depression you tend to feel as though you have nothing to live for, you feel empty; therefore stagnation takes over, hopelessness rules. You think about all the things you should have done or should have already accompolished. However, when theings are going good you are upbeat, making plans, really setting and attaining goals for yourself. All you can think about is that there is not enough hours in the day, the progress of your vision. You accompolish more when you think life is good!!

If it is true that your life flashes past your eyes before you die then it is also the truth that your life rushes forth when you are ready to live.

The flashing lights get brighter when I close my eyes and imagine where I will be. The person I've been seeking for so long, the who, what, when, where and why. The one who go lost when the lights went out. When I gave up and said fuck it because my mind, body and soul could take no more. Then I was just living which is the same as dying if your ask my. All the hurt and pain kept flashing when I thought about the flashing lights that could be. Not letting go of the past and move into the flashing light. Every now and again there will be a small light glowing in the distance , but the darkness over takes that small flashing light that could be.